Trust me kid, it's not the end of the world.

Summer is heading my way, and I still have no clue what to do!  I have a couple of fabulous options, but I really need to start planning now and getting them down on paper (booking tickets, places etc.) if they are going to happen.
Methinks that some of them are very difficult to achieve, but I really want to get the most out of these two and a wee bit months.  To go to Salamanca and have a riot while learning a language I love?  Or just going plain round Europe and doing whatever whenever?  I am caught between the two, but on top of that, the chance for an internship with a local design house, and a volleyball camp to top it off? Or do I design that capsule collection by myself and use the summer as portfolio experience? AAAAAH.  No tengo ni idea.

Not so fabulous.  A part of me, just wants to relax and have one of those typical summer sun summers, lazing in a backyard paddle pool, with a barbecue grilling every night, carefree and spontaneous days.  That's what it's all supposed to be about, right?  I think all this plus all the other crap that's going on isn't doing me much good when it comes to decision making.  Not that I was ever good at making decisions.  I think my main worry is that I won't enjoy my summer unless I'm doing something.  I look back and I think "what a retard." who doesn't enjoy summer?

I wish my room would look more like this.  I'd feel more rad.

You can't survive on a diet of hope.

This is what I'm telling myself in the lead up to exams, because dammmn that syllabus is long.  I look at half the points listed on it, and I'm just like...what's that?

But seriously, I think that the best way to prepare is when you're all relaxed and you know that you're doing the best you could've done.  I think if you're reading this, you realise that I'm trying to reassure myself.  Too bad, it's not working.  This is when Bon Iver or Julian Peretta comes in handy.

I'm counting the days down til summer.  I have to start working on my Sports Awards dress that reminds me.  ciao.

Procrastination, we're done.

Studying for exams is never easy.  I get that.  It's just a pain right now, when I have a thousand other things on my mind.  Especially when what you're studying happened over 400 years ago, and you have no inkling of how it will affect you now?

The thing is when I don't study, or even when I have and I'm just relaxing for the day, I feel TERRIBLE.  I hate exams.  They make you feel trapped.  I sound so overly dramatic, and these are just internal exams.  What happens when we get to mocks and then GOD FORBID the real things?  I will go insaneeee.

It's times like these when I turn on Bob Marley's Three Little Birds and just listen and feel amazing.  ...mmm I'm craving some apple crumble from the Saturday Cafe in Kathmandu...of all places.

I better get back to studying the bakufu or shogunate or whatever they called themselves.  Sonno joi.

Beach Baby.

Gillian Zinser. Ivy Cooper.  Whatever you want to call her.  LOVE HER.  She is everything summer stands for.

Plans, Plans and more plans

Since my proposed awesome summer plans just fell through, I just came up with a bunch more that are to my liking. Some of them yes, are slightly too romantic to be put into action, but it never hurts to dream.

Soooo what I proposed, and surprisingly, el padre agreed! Was a sort of rail trip around Europe, where I can be free to do what I want.  Hopefully sister will be the companero for the trip, but we shall see.  Italy, Spain, Greece, Paris..the list could go on and on.  And each place I'm free to do what I want. YES.

Also, I could go all eat.pray.love and do something special at each place...thinking of visiting Paris during the Fashion weeks.  But alternatively, I'd love to do some service project in Macchu Picchu or Cuba - just found an NGO, and again, YESSSS.

even better, would be to start that fashion line I've been dreaming up and sketching for oh, only the past couple of months.  I reckon it's time to get started.  I've already got an AMAZING stylist by my side, and I'm ready to sew, find the models and shoot the collection.

I was hoping Canada was where I was going to be this summer, with the amazing cliffs and mountain ranges, but it looks like I can get a whole lot more for where I'm going to go.

Looking forward to fashion weeks, amazing landscapes, speaking a language other than english, realizing goals, and eating a helluva lot of gelato.
Summer is going to be great.