PHOTOSHOOT.

Here is a small look at the Bohemia Lookbook - THE FIRST EVER.  Technically it's just a random mishmash of everything I could put together so far (minus one or two pieces) but it's majorly exciting...so enjoy (:

So this is it.  (:
Personally I despise the shots of myself (I want to reshoot that white dress - it's too short!) but the other girls are looking pretty darn good.  Feel free to leave your thoughts behind.  Right now I'm cooking up a storm with new designs for a themed collection.  To be coming soon....
CIAO.

Punt NL.

I am here!!  I am so glad to be back home.  It's really chill out here, the weather is amazing, and I can just relax for the next month or so.  Already started sketching some new designs, and getting ready for the trips down to Antwerp and Paris (: I might be meeting a friend next week, and going down to Amsterdam in the night, so that is really exciting.
I'll put up pictures soon, but I'm also preoccupied with work...hopefully the photoshoot pictures come up soon, that's something to look forward to!
I better get started, but to leave off on a good note, a quote I found:

Paradox

Life's like that
To get energy, you need to
expend energy
The more you do, the more you
can do
To get the most out of life, you need
to get into it
To receive love you need to give it
In taking no risks, you are really risking
everything.

Just  a shot I found from Elle Russia.  I love how the model is all freckled out - shows that we are indeed moving past the conventional frames of beauty as deemed by society. I love it. The dress is pretty kickass as well. 

Hope you're all enjoying your summers so far!

Took a while for you to find me, but I was hiding in the lime tree.

I CAN ALMOST TASTE SUMMER.  It is so close. Only five more times to get up early.  And then, school isn't even school as of next week after Tuesday review/IA submission at least.  I have so much to look forward to: wednesday photoshoot, thursday pool party, FRIDAY END OF SCHOOL.  I just can't wait. I think it's awesome to end on a high note after the stress of this week.  I really felt that I was going to crumble from the pressure, but it seems like I've made it.  All it took was someone to talk to, who really understand, and a couple good things to come my way.

Summer remains as disorganised as ever.  But it'll get better, I have a feeling.  I don't know what tomorrow holds, but that's okay, because I'm still busy enjoying today.

I am tired, and weak right now, but it's all good, I'm still smiling.  But I've in truth never had such mixed feelings about school ending; I figure that I'll miss all the people over the break, the only consolation being I'll see them again in two month's time.  I feel like in the past year, I've made some connections stronger than anything in the past.  The feeling is amazing.
This weekend is also going to be super busy, but super fun as well.  Can't wait!  It seems that everything is falling into place.  There is just one huge puzzle piece that has yet to be put down...and maybe a couple of others.  Hopefully that'll be sorted tonight or in the coming week.  We shall see.
CIAO.

And I thought it couldn't sink any further

Well, I've just been rejected for my second summer plan...so I'm feeling quite low at the moment.  And although, honestly I'm not as disappointed about this one, as I was the previous one, it begs me to raise the question, am I good for anything?  good AT anything?  When I see everyone going on their Yale Ivy scholarship programs, or their internships, it makes me wonder, can I get into anything based on my merit, or am I one of those kids who has to pay their way?  I've been brought up to believe I can do anything I put my mind to, and so far, that has been smooth sailing for me.  Recently, it seems like that's just not good enough.  No matter how hard I try, or how much I improve, it seems like there's always that someone who is one step ahead of me, got that extra special something.  The worst part?  I don't know what to do about it.

Now I hate moping.  I feel like I'm wasting even more time doing so. But when it all falls apart for the second time, you begin to wonder, how there is even a remote chance of it working out the next time?  I am blowing this out of context, mind you, it's just summer and I am ambitious here seeing as I have 110 other things to do..but it's just that feeling of chilling out and doing what I love, mixed in with that ultra dramatic moment that I want.  I think I have parts 1 and 2 down, but I want to do something special.  I have no idea why I want this so bad, but I guess if I just relax, it'll come eventually.

This whole week though, has been pretty bleughhh if you ask me.  I just finished my SAT for the second time, yet there's no feeling of joy, just a feeling of relief that it's over and done with.  Never a good sign.  Also, a lot of my friends this week like I've said already have been feeling it (and by 'it' I mean sadness, stress, anger, frustration, pain, weakness), and that has just affected me, not to mention the piling workload that just seems never ending.  I just wish my end to the year would be a bit smoother.  It only seemed like last week when things were going so great.  And I just know next week won't be something to look forward to either.  For example, the awards assembly...it's simply accolades for the best of the best, or rather those who put their noses to the grindstone when it comes to academics, unlike me.  I sound selfish saying that I don't want to celebrate their achievements because they do deserve the recognition, but honestly, I don't.  I have secretly always clamoured for an award, but now, I don't even fathom them attainable for myself.  I seem to have turned into quite the pessimist.

I need to go do something that will restore a little of my faith.  I think I know just the thing.  hmph.
I'll come back here when I'm done complaining and being such a moaner.

Every little thing, is gonna be alright.

So don't you worry about a thing.  Oh how carefree and easy those words come, from Bob Marley.  Yet to put into practice, especially in the International Baccalaureate?  That is another thing entirely; unrealistic.  I have my draft of my World Lit paper due in tomorrow, and I've barely scraped together an introduction.  Granted, my outline is done, but I have yet to email my Extended Essay supervisor a solid approach, topic and research question for the essay itself.  I am in TROUBLE.  Yet I am unfazed, as I watch Ryan Stiles, Collin Mocchrie and Wayne Brady do their thing, over and over and over again.  This is procrastination at its best.  It's a good thing the latest season of 90210 has finished.  Then life would be another story.

Yet it's not me I'm worried about, I feel the constant stress of those I love around me, and that worries me.  I guess I'm one of those sort of people who does 'feel your pain'.  I hate seeing my friends in pain, or stressed, angry, sad, hurt.  There have been many this week, and I feel so helpless; all I can say is stay strong, the end is in sight for most of you!  It would be too much of a shame to let go and give up now, after working so hard for so long.  As with regards to what others say, you sometimes have to just give them the finger and move on, so you can focus on what is best for you, and what is going to help you get to where you want to go.  Now I'm not an idealist - I don't expect everyone to be happy all of the time, but then again, I try my best to make sure everyone is    the best they can be at the moment in time.  The main thing is, I wish everyone would just CHILLAX.  Easier said than done, I know. But tis still possible, methinks, with the right attitude.  Which I am lacking of right now, as I am definitely putting off my world lit.  OH WELL.  I must get it done.
and don't even get me started on SAT. What a bloody waste of time.

I will leave you all with a song that never fails to ease the flow, anytime, anywhere.  Bob Marley's Three Little Birds, will never fail to do the trick.

Renuka Ramanujam for Balmain - Capsule Collection

So I found this old thing lying around the other day, thought it might kickstart the career in a small way.  At least in my mind.  Don't really like it, Balmain's too sharp edged for me.  When I try and enjoy it, it sort of pokes me.  It's hard to explain.  I'm just a true Boho at heart.  Don't hate me for it.  Coachella and Woodstock are/were my calling!  Here goes anyway, just for the hell of it.  I tried to mix some bohemian in there, you can decide for yourself if I've done that successfully or not.

This one has to be my all time favourite - there are a few takers for graduation next year.  If I weren't going to wear a sari, this would probably be it.  Oh, the possibilities.  Hehe, kind of cheated, went a bit Grecian here alreadyyy.

and even more Grecian/Egyptian. I am a failure.

Kind of reminiscent of the dress that Florence Welch wore in her Dog Days are Over video.  I JUST realised.  Well this collection is looking very un-Balmain-ish if I may so myself, at the moment.

                                     The Supposed Statement piece.  oopss for the edge cutting off.

                          Those flowers took me forever to draw.  Just saying.

All in all, I think I threw everything that was possible in there, guess the hippie roots never will escape me.  Not too shabby for a first try, methinks.  This summer there's going to be more where that came from.