Perspective.

That word is a funny, funny thing. I feel as if uttering it, can be the motivation to lose a sense of morals when preparing to embark on a knowingly stupid action, or it can be the way to slowly rebuild oneself after a series of weeks moping about the lost opportunities.  In my case, I'm sad enough to say that I have experienced both.  


But while perspective can help, it can also make you ponder the other side of it all - how insignificant am I really?  One of my best friends showed me a song from Monty Python:


Whenever things get you down, things seem hard or tough, or people are stupid, obnoxious or daft, and you've feel like you've had quite enough:

Remember,

that you're standing on a planet that's evolving
And revolving at nine hundred miles an hour,
That's orbiting at nineteen miles a second, so it's reckoned,
A sun that is the source of all our power.
The sun and you and me and all the stars that we can see
Are moving at a million miles a day
In an outer spiral arm, at forty thousand miles an hour,
Of the galaxy we call the 'Milky Way'.
Our galaxy itself contains a hundred billion stars.
It's a hundred thousand light years side to side.
It bulges in the middle, sixteen thousand light years thick,
But out by us, it's just three thousand light years wide.



My thoughts exactly. And so you begin to think (or at least I did) what difference am I going to make anyway?  But then you could turn it around and say, whatever I do, I shouldn't take it overly seriously, because at the end of the day, your happiness is limited to you; you are the one that creates it, and it can be as large as you want it to be.  So because you are free to create on your own path, it makes it all the easier to get to where you want to go - no pressure to be this or that.  Unfortunately that's not really the case for a lot of us - most of us forget where we are in the bigger picture, and draw the screen pretty small til we're haystack covering the needle.  


I feel like the past few days I've just been slogging away, and I want to enjoy the rest of summer, I mean I am, but its different than how I imagined. With everyone slowly filtering back into the Pore, I reckon it'll be pretty enjoyable soon.  I am in desperate need of a ladies night, or something of the sort.


it's amazing how it was so fleeting, but that is the nature of summer indeed.  It's crazy.  I guess the best thing is to enjoy my time in Singapore while I can; there won't be that much more of it yet after 8 months. AAAAAAAH
I miss my friends. But they are all coming back in the next few daysss YAY. but I need to do my ee, common app, history work, chem revision, personal statement, english logs aaaaand deet the YAY. 
so if anyone out there knows what I mean, I shall be tango-ing next Sunday. Cheers to that. 

Supposed motivation to carry on with my EE - this is one of the dresses I will be analysing; tis pretty and exotic in my opinion.  Hopefully one day, I'll be up there, putting my ideas to life on the runway.  I can dream.